the beauty in surviving a shit sandwich – my divorce musings

the beauty in surviving a shit sandwich – my divorce musings

As we embark on the beginning of a new session of Goddess Body University, it brings me back to last year when I was going through the process of divorce, I was completely out of touch with my body. I’ve seen countless women also come into a crossroads in their life, ready to shed layers of insecurity, finally ready to take their self-care seriously and de-stress. I know this personally all too well. Stress was an understatement in my own personal journey last year. I had put this undue pressure on myself to “keep it together”. I had been “keeping it together” in my marriage for about 13 years for the sake of my children. Tearing apart a family was a guilt I did not want to bear. Until one day I looked in the mirror and realized that I had robbed myself. I was spending my days avoiding the truth, making excuses and busying myself so I wouldn’t have to deal with reality. I didn’t know who I was anymore. I was coaching women to be strong, confident and powerful in their lives when I felt like a phony, fake and crumbling mess. During the thick of it, I found my strength in teaching women to do what I did not have the mental fortitude to do for my own life. What I didn’t realize is that while being a teacher, I was indeed the student. I learned that my timing needed to be just that, mine. No one could tell me what or how I needed to live. I had to come to this realization on my own....
Train Like A Goddess Competitor

Train Like A Goddess Competitor

Train Like A Goddess Competitor- FREE 14 Day Challenge A FREE Challenge geared to give you a real feel for a Goddess competitor lifestyle! What is it? Over the past 3 years I’ve been coaching every day women, just like you, to get on stage for a bikini or figure competition. Heck, I myself have competed on stage 7x successfully and learned so much along the way. Through my own personal experiences with lackluster coaching that left me starved, depleted and on a mental downward spiral, I made it MY mission to coach women the healthful “Goddess” way. This 14 Day FREE Challenge will provide you with a great taste of what training is like, how to start eating like a competitor and how mindset is one of the key components to lasting success. In an effort to get MORE women comfortable on the gym weight room floor, I am inviting you to join me for 14 days of training and also eating and thinking like a Goddess Competitor. You’ll get an average of 10-12 workouts in over the 14 day challenge (mainly weight training but some HIIT cardio as well). This will likely be much different training that you are used to, but that’s ok because I’ll be in the private Facebook group the entire time to help you out! Remember…in order to achieve something you’ve never had, you will have to do things you’ve likely never done before right!? How Do You Sign Up? Click here to add yourself and then you will get FREE from me: 14 Day Workout Calendar from June 6th-June 20th with some flexibility so...
40 pounds lighter – Beatriz Flores Goddess of the Month

40 pounds lighter – Beatriz Flores Goddess of the Month

Every so often we get a new Goddess in the studio who I refer to as the “cheerleader”. Beatriz is one of those clients. She came in inspired by the women she saw in the studio and ready to create her very own transformation. And that she did. Shedding almost 40 pounds. However, while she was at Venus sweating, twirling and squatting she made sure to make each and every woman know how amazing they were. Whether it is your first day or you 300th day Beatriz always delivers love via the way of compliments and constant reassurance. She truly represents my mission statement of “no Goddess left behind”. I want every single woman to enter the doors feeling like she’s found her fitness home. Beatriz will certainly make you feel welcome. Learn more about our beloved Beatriz Flores below…     Occupation and age: Vice Principal at a TK- 8th Grade School. I am 37 years’ old.   Kids? Grandkids? If so brag a bit: I am a mom to five amazing kids- four boys and one girl. Oscar is 16 and a Junior in HS, Andres is 14 and a Freshmen in HS, Diego is 12 (will turn 13 in two weeks) he is in 8th grade at the Middle School, Ivan is a 6th Grader also at the Middle School, and Valeria is 7 and in 2nd grade at the Elementary School.  Your life motto: There are two things I find I say a lot! “Go do it! Life and time are going to go by anyway.” And “Go for it. The worst thing that can happen...
I got my mojo back – progress pics and what’s working

I got my mojo back – progress pics and what’s working

I will admit pressing publish on this blog felt like I was giving a speech while standing naked in a room full of strangers. Which makes sense considering I’m close to nakey in the photos and in my admissions below. My sister and I were brunching last weekend and she reminded me of a meme that I thought was funny untillll… I was at the receiving end of it. Yeah well…it happens. And this is where I found myself this summer along with being the main caregiver for my mom after her heart surgery and taking on home schooling my 6th grader for the first time. So you can say that life got…well…Life-y. This isn’t meant to be a “Dear Diary” entry but more of a peek into the human-ness that we all possess and can wreck havoc not only on our personal lives but our bodies and mental health. In case you’re new here – quick background…I was a fitness competitor from 2011 -2014 with less than competent coaches. I competed in my LAST bikini competition at the end of 2014 and it left my metabolism, hormones and life in a huge mess. I gained over 20 lbs. in a very short period of time due to binges and neglecting self-care. It was incredibly depressing and it took me 2 years to feel like I was out of the dark with my obsessive thoughts about food, my body and feelings of worthlessness tied to my appearance. Like any normal human I’ve had my ups and downs since all of that. While I no longer feel like my purpose in...
Desire Map Weekly Planner Review

Desire Map Weekly Planner Review

I am a planner addict. I love to-do lists, however I think I like scratching things off my to-do list more than anything. I literally cannot wait for 2018 so I can DIVE into using Danielle LaPorte’s Desire Map Planner that is littered with so much love and inspiration to create a passion filled year leading with my core desired feelings. This planner system incorporates your soul and your to-do list; your gratitude and your goals; your deepest desires with your day-to-day. I did a full video review of the daily journal below so you can see what it looks like and how freaking beautiful it is. Or you can read my notes below the video for a recap. Why I am in L-O-V-E with this planner: Hard cover. It’s sturdy and well built. I love the spiral bound spine so that I can open it up flat and not worry about it closing up on me. I dislike soft flimsy covers that won’t hold up while roaming around in my laptop bag 🙂 The elastic band is great to keep it all together. It can also act as a great place marker for you to open up right to the day you are at. There is a pocket in the back which is great for any random love notes, receipts or misc loose papers you need to access. The monthly tabs are indented so you can access the month, or future months, quickly. The paper is an amazing quality, it doesn’t bleed or smear when you write and it’s nice and thick so it won’t rip or tear easily....
My reverse transformation

My reverse transformation

With the launch of my online program, Sensual Movement, I am brought back a flood of memories to when I felt my lowest of lows in the sexy and confident arena. It may be shocking to some and I’ve been wanting to tell this story for some time. In 2014 I had come off of a back-to-back stint of 7 bodybuilding shows. What started out as a bucket list goal became an unhealthy relationship with food, exercise and my thoughts. Like many of the women that I have met over the years, I thought that when I could get myself as lean as possible, I’d love my body and finally be happy with myself. I’m pretty sure I thought “Geeze, aren’t all of these women who walk around with 6-pack abs, jacked and lean living happy wonderful lives and running around naked since they look perfect!??? And, while I know for certain there are some women that happily live with incredibly low levels of body fat, eat tilapia and asparagus for 5 out of 6 meals and count every calorie they burn and ounce of water they drink, that’s just not my experience. While I would never take back my experience in bodybuilding, what I wish I could take back were the years of loathing my body in the process. Each show I wasn’t lean enough. I didn’t look as good as the other women. I was still too heavy. Even at my last show winning 1st place and the overall in the masters division in a group of more than 45 women, I still didn’t love body or...
Fake It Till You Make It

Fake It Till You Make It

“The degree to which you cherish yourself is the precise degree to which you will be cherished. Have a cherishing thought about yourself, right now. -Mama Gena “I look fat” “I’ll never be sexy” “I’m a failure” “I hate myself” Have you ever thought one of these things, or worse, said them out loud to yourself? With the recent launch of my new online program, Sensual Movement, I’m getting questions about how the mindset shift from negative self talk occurs to exuding buckets of confidence.   I can honestly say that there have been times when those phrases above were just a handful of the terrible things I would think to myself. In fact, I know that there are a lot of women who consistently belittle themselves with attacks of self-hatred daily, from the moment they wake up, to the time they lie down to sleep. How do I know? Because that was me. And, because I have had the privilege of being surrounded by a community of women who have allowed me to be a part of their life’s journey, and many of them have shared their personal stories with me. It’s so easy for self-proclaimed guru’s to just echo back to you “just love yourself”. What does that cryptic advice even mean? As if it were that easy. What I get to witness is what makes my life’s work so rewarding. I have had the pleasure of guiding women to love themselves through movement – Sensual Movement, Pole Dancing, yoga, bootcamp and all the shenanigans in between. It doesn’t just happen. You don’t just look in the mirror...
I Know I Felt Invisible, Have You?

I Know I Felt Invisible, Have You?

“Life begins outside your comfort zone”. -Neale Donald Walsch Here’s a little glance into a conversation that I had with a woman in Austin for a business conference. She said, “You must be so proud of everything you have accomplished.” After I thanked her for the compliment I then replied, “Honestly, I haven’t become anything really. I stopped living in fear of taking chances. Over the years it wasn’t what I wanted to experience anymore. I stopped worrying about what everyone else thought of me and in doing that, I allowed myself to be who I really am. I know a huge contributor of that shift has been my evolution through sensual movement” What I forgot to mention to her is that I feel it’s my duty to pass it forward to other women by way of my story. Before I started #sensualmovement I was a people pleaser, a “yes” woman, door mat, shy, quiet and invisible. I just wanted to blend in. I was scared of everything. I had no confidence in myself or in my body. I felt like a nobody. I spent more time looking in the mirror and hating my reflection than I’d care to admit.   Facing my fears, allowing myself to be vulnerable and not giving up led me to finally believe in myself. It gave me strength. It allowed me to get out of my head. It created fearlessness in myself that I hope to share with so many more women People judged me, and they still do I’m sure. But the thing is; now I don’t let that affect me or hold me back. And, you...
Why Are We Really Complaining?

Why Are We Really Complaining?

There are times in life when, instead of complaining, you do something about your complaints. -Rita Dove   I’ve been complaining a lot lately. I hate it. It hasn’t been over anything incredibly earth shattering, but enough to where I’m growing tired of the sound of my own complaining thoughts. One of my more frequent annoyances is dog hair. One of the furry children, Roger, sheds a ton. His long red and white hairs get everywhere. I can’t keep up with the massive hairballs floating across our hardwood floors. It annoys me. Anything he lies on is instantly covered in a blanket of fur. So naturally, I complain about it. But, one particular weekend was different.  As I was vacuuming up the gobs of hair, I said aloud “I am so sick of having to keep up with all of his shedding. Every other day the rugs are covered in hair”. No sooner did the words come out of my mouth, when I realized that I complain about this issue pretty much every day. And again, I’m tired of hearing myself complain about it. So, naturally, I pulled out the clippers and spent over an hour shaving Roger.     Drastic? Maybe. But guess what? There has been a lot less dog hair around my house lately and I’m done complaining. Score!! If there is one thing that I can’t stand it’s complaining. Sure I’m guilty of it, but I try to get down to the bottom of why I’m complaining so that I can solve the issue. This is just a very simplistic example of trivial complaining. However, when there...
My fave protein powders and pre-workout supplements

My fave protein powders and pre-workout supplements

“You know, all that really matters is that the people you love are happy and healthy. Everything else is just sprinkles on the sundae.” -Paul Walker    A few of questions I get asked often are… “How do I get my family to eat healthy?” and “What kind of protein and pre-workout supplements do you recommend?” Let’s start with getting the fam-bam to eat healthy…   This is a question I get often because when my Goddesses start improving their nutrition they find family is often hard to get on board.   I get it, I totally do. My kids lived on fish sticks, corn dogs, Top Ramen and apple juice for years. So naturally, when their mom became a health coach thru the Institute of Integrative Nutrition, they were less than enthused.   It’s no doubt that my main objective in life is to inspire and motivate others to be their best selves, but I was NOT prepared for the struggle when it came to my own family.   It can be rough when the people you love the most aren’t as excited about eating veggies and breaking a sweat? lol   When I first got started on my healthier lifestyle, I wanted my family in on it. But let me tell you, they were not about to eat my sweet potato cupcakes and kale chips. Major fail.   I would try to get my family eating new healthier recipes by swapping out old, unhealthier versions and there was always a complaint. But I didn’t give up.   What I did give up was being a “health pusher”. Pushing or...
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